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Previous Entry Please read: True Story, True Conversation Feb. 19th, 2005 @ 01:34 am Next Entry
This is a true conversation I had with a friend of mine. Shes a recovering drug addict and just about everyone in her life puts her in a bad position. I would explain more but Im not sure if she would care about me telling her story. But this was the end of our conversation we had just after talking for like an hour about her life and my life and just random things. I hope you can feel and understand the things that I have said in this conversation. Please read.

The Secret to life
"Can I share something with you?" I asked her sympathetically
"Yeah sure" she said
"You have to get up though"
I got up and started to walk across the porch.
"I'm getting sick and tired of people making life so complicated"
with suspense she said "Mmhm"
"They ponder and ponder about the secret to life. They keep looking to look and look even more, they never find what they truly need."
She kept following me slowly to the backyard steps off the porch.
"When all they need to do...is step outside."

"Look around"
"Ok?" she asked but followed directions perfectly
She looked around for a second and replied
"The secret to life is in the trees, its in the moon. Look at the moon its beautiful. Its in the air, the grass, the birds that hum and sing every morning so you have something to wake up for."

"Wow" she said amazed

"Now... look at the sky again. See that sky with all of its winking stars, picture that..."
"That..." I repeated
"picture that inside yourself... and let it rise and rise and let it burst from every pore.

So instead of waking up for the birds humming and singing outside, wake up for the bird thats humming and singing inside of yourself. Now that is a secret, That is beautiful."

She stopped and stared at the sky for atleast five minutes, but before she could turn her head and respond I finished:

"About two weeks ago I came outside because I was feeling depressed and I needed a smoke. I was depressed because of what all I've been through and am going through now. I pondered about my life and just life in general. I started to smoke my ciggerette and then...then it hit me! I looked around... and I saw the trees , the grass, the moon, the stars. Whatever it was it was flowing through the air. It hit me...this IS the secret to life. And for the first time in my life, I felt true happiness, I felt true acceptance, I felt true peace within myself, I felt. I felt!. I wasn't scared anymore, I wasn't insecure anymore, I wasn't afraid to face the world another day. And so I got up and jumped around like I was a little kid and played in the snow and made a snow angel. Most people think about jumping around and doing whatever they want, but they always stop and think "No I can't do that", but... I did. Even though it was freezing cold I layed in the snow for at least 20 minutes. I was shivering like crazy but you know what... It didnt matter because I...I had a smile on my face. Not just a smile, but a smile that ment something. It wasn't fake, it was real and it would last forever inside my mind."

"I'm not sure if you'll understand...feel this now, but I hope you'll find out what I'm talking about one day."
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Date:February 25th, 2005 03:50 pm (UTC)
wonderful story. i've had that experience, that feeling before, but somehow i let myself slip back into old patterns of behavior and ignorance of the beauty and joy of life.
Date:February 26th, 2005 09:05 am (UTC)
is that a SOAD icon?
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Date:February 26th, 2005 12:13 pm (UTC)
It certainly is. I used to look almost exactly like Serj, before I even knew who Serj was, so a friend of mine took it upon herself to make an icon for me of Serj. That is actually how I heard about SOAD.
Date:February 27th, 2005 05:24 pm (UTC)
SOAD has awesome lyrics. I don't think I found one song of theirs that was just about some dumb shit. People think Chic' n 'stu song is idiotic but its really not. And chop suey, same thing. They actually started out with very very spiritual lyrics and then once everyone found out about them they turned political. Probably to get a message across since they gained some power.
Date:February 27th, 2005 05:26 pm (UTC)
"Know" is my favorite song by them. They speak of astral projection in the song. Look up the lyrics for "know" and compare it to your understanding on astral projection, astral travel, OBE(out of body expierences), and near death expierences.
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Date:February 27th, 2005 08:22 pm (UTC)
Very true. I think they got political because it has almoste becom more necessary than the spiritual. The political situation in the world seems to be a bit more urgent than the spiritual. Given, if everyone would be a bit more spiritual, the political climate would be totally different, but spiritual evolution takes more time. I enjoyed them more as a spiritual band, but hey, what can you do?
Date:February 28th, 2005 12:58 pm (UTC)
I totally agree...I loved the first album. I'll add you...do the same if you wish.
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Date:February 28th, 2005 01:01 pm (UTC)
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Date:May 27th, 2005 06:13 pm (UTC)

I stumbled across your journal somehow and read this post... And it touched me. It's very well written.. And i was actually wondering if you'd let me post it in my journal?? I would credit of course! Let me know.

Thanks muchly :)
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Date:November 2nd, 2005 06:29 am (UTC)

cool beanz

Hmm, from the conversation you recorded it sounds like uve discovered the universe within yourself. The whole Universe inside you and you're filling it with ciggarette smoke. Sad really... I dont want to be judgemental just thought provoking.
Date:November 3rd, 2005 04:17 pm (UTC)

Re: cool beanz

HAHAHA. wow. And what do you think the smoke towers are? WHat about the vehicles we drive everyday? What about oil spills?

I don't want to be judgemental, but it's just thought provoking.
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