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Previous Entry New member Apr. 10th, 2006 @ 08:42 pm Next Entry
Hey everyone, my name is Nat and I'm 22 years old. I thought I'd start off by sharing a story from my own life that kinda makes you stop and think...

My doctors have told me for quite a while now that I may never be able to have children of my own. I have various chronic health problems and my fertility is extremely low, not to mention my uterus is not the greatest a woman could hope for. This never really bothered me cause I would rather adopt a child anyway.

So, a couple of years ago I feel head-over-heels in love with a guy. We used both the pill and condoms "just in case" but not long after we started dating I began to have very weird, very vivid dreams. I kept dreaming that we had a child named Terra with gorgeous red, curly hair. I dreamt often about this child climbing around the rocks of Signal Hill (local steep, dangerous and popular cliff type thing) and crying. I told my bf about the crazy dreams because they were really starting to bother me. When I told him he turned white as a ghost and totally flipped out. I figured he was freaked that I wanted to have a child with him or something, but this wasn't the case. He explained to me while trying to hold back tears that Terra was a good friend of his. She had commited suicide on Signal Hill a few years ago by jumping off the cliff. He didn't want to go into much detail cause it bothered him too much. So, we were a bit freaked out, but kinda forgot about it for a bit.

A couple of months later after going to emergency because I was dizzy and weak feeling, we found out I was pregnant!!! The doctor said my chances of becoming pregnant were like 1 in a million! We were both totally freaked at this point. But it gets more intense...

So after crying from shock and a few days of discusing what to do, we decided that we should keep the baby and name it Terra or give it up for adoption. We didn't want to abort a child that seemed so "meant to be". So, a few months pass again and we had kinda forgotten about the creepiness of eveything that had been happening and were still considering adoption when the dreams started... again! This time, they were of me laying on signal hill with the red headed child I had earlier dreampt about, but this time it was clearly a boy. An angel appeared (I'm Buddhist by the way, so this was even odder to me) and she told me I was to raise this child, Terra's child, who never had a chance at life.

Ok so now I was REALLY weirded out. I mentioned it to my bf and he flipped again! He said "Nat, I never mentioned this cause it didn't seem important at the time, but Terra was pregnant with a little boy when she died!"

Several more months passed, and guess what? We were blessed with a beautiful red headed boy who we named Terran (which means "of Terra")

This is proof that things do indeed happen for a reason, even if they seem completely impossible or unreal.
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From:amandaporter
Date:April 17th, 2006 03:04 pm (UTC)
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Chills! Absolute chills! Will you be raising this child? or putting him up for adoption?
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From:photo_phanatic
Date:April 17th, 2006 06:57 pm (UTC)
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Hope this answers your question:

Terran is now a happy, healthy 13 month old and the absolute love of my life
:) <3
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From:alice_mond
Date:April 21st, 2006 12:45 pm (UTC)
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Very interesting story!!! And what about your bf? What is his attitude to the boy?
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From:photo_phanatic
Date:April 21st, 2006 03:51 pm (UTC)
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He was all excited until Terran was born.
Then things completely changed.
I left him when Terran was about five months old and he doesn't have anything to do with him now.
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From:alice_mond
Date:April 25th, 2006 08:14 am (UTC)
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It's a grievous end... Was your child the reason of your parting?
From:(Anonymous)
Date:April 25th, 2006 09:49 am (UTC)
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Not exactly.
He juat wasn't supportive or responsible enough.
I did all the work of preparing for our sons birth and then of course all the work of caring for him after he was born.
I just refused yo put up with his B.S.
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From:photo_phanatic
Date:April 25th, 2006 09:50 am (UTC)
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Not exactly.
He juat wasn't supportive or responsible enough.
I did all the work of preparing for our sons birth and then of course all the work of caring for him after he was born.
I just refused yo put up with his B.S.
From:hazel_mypal
Date:June 21st, 2006 05:55 am (UTC)
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that is intriguing but to kind of believe it i believe comes from ur religion --im religious but havent been categorised as yet so i'll take that with a gulp of water.
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